40th day of grieving, 1st day of happiness

Today is my 40th day of grieving. And today i am consciously letting go of the pain, resentments and anger.

I went to church today. To the place that is a part of our relationship. and there i cried all my pain. i lift up to Mama Mary all the negative feelings that are weighing me down. And just then I realized that although he has left me, it's not just the pain of the reality that he has left behind. he left me the best gift of all, my Higher Power. He introduced me to my Higher Power and brought me closer to Him.

Today I am letting go. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. But one day at a time, I will face my life with hope.

Today is my 40th day of grieving and my first day of happiness. I am letting go of my love with love.